"Because I’m a ghost. I’m no one’s best friend. I’m always the last to be called, informed, invited. Because I’m canceled on, ignored, neglected, invisible. I’m angry, emotionally unstable, manipulative. Friendship with me is so easily thrown away. Everyone is busy when I’m falling apart. I’m needy, clingy, I never listen. Because people leave anyway. I protect myself from the pain of being alone, by pushing people away because you’ll end up hurting me. I can’t let you get close, you’ll think I’m needy and clingy once you get to know me, and eventually leave. I’m pushing you away now, to protect you from the future regret of getting to knowing me. I’m pushing you away to save you the time that you’ll end up wasting on me. You’ll thank me later, once you realize how relieving ridding of me from your life, memories, and presence is, as many others have. Because I’ll feel alone and end up hurting you, no matter how many times you say “I’m your friend, I care for you, and I’m there for you.”. I’m used to people leaving, especially because I push them away. It’s just better for you this way. Now, please, go away before you are trapped with the mistake of being a friend to me."
- If you ever ask me why I push you away, I will respond with this. (via jessicaholics